My First Phone Call With Molly

My friend Jamie "hooked me up" with her co-worker, Molly, who was interested in being a gestational carrier for me and my husband (back story HERE or for all of my other infertility journey posts check out my "Infertility" category in my main menu). 

So it was time for our first phone call. I was so nervous! I hope I don't cry... I hope I'm not awkward... I hope I don't ask too many questions... were just a few of the thoughts running through my head.  I was in my car driving when the phone call happened. 

During our chat, we both gave one another brief backgrounds on who we were, where we live, where we grew up. She told me about her two little boys, who at the time were both under 3 years old.  She expressed how much she loved being pregnant, but was completely content with her two boys and did not have plans for anymore children. I explained to her my infertility journey thus far, and my gratitude for her even considering doing such a selfless and amazing thing.  I don't recall her exact words, but it was probably something like "oh yeah, no problem." As, if I were asking her to watch my dog for a weekend.  In my mind all I was thinking was, who is this chick? and is this normal? It can't be this easy?

Talking to Molly for the first time was effortless, the same way it is still to this day. She carries no airs, no judgements, is laid back, genuine, sincere, and loving.  

I kept my shit together the entire phone call. Immediately upon hanging up, I sat in my car in my driveway, and sobbed hysterically.  Could this really be it? I was in a dark tunnel for SO long, and as cliche as it sounds, this was the first moment when I saw a glimpse of light. This phone call meant I was one step closer to becoming a mom, and it was a huge turning point for me. 

I had to get myself together to go inside and tell my husband, Trevor.  I started with so I just got off the phone with Molly and... Then immediately lost my shit again.  I told him I was crying because I was so happy, it felt too good to be true. Everything had been going wrong for years and this was finally giving me hope back.  She was amazing, the thought of it working was amazing. I couldn't believe it.