What Makes Me So Flipping Special?
In my last post about my New Year's resolutions I mentioned that I was going to refocus the direction of my blog. Over the past year, I have had a really fun experience dabbling in the blogging world. It has been an outlet to express some of my creativity, and has really just been an expanded version of my hobbies. With that being said, I have treated my blogging as such, a hobby. I am not looking for blogging to become my job (I'll be returning back to teaching next year). Despite this, I have still felt immense pressure since entering the blogging world to somehow morph into either a fashion blogger or a "product" pusher, whether it be beauty or otherwise.
When it comes to Instagram, I tend to get the most "likes" on fashion related posts. Truth be told though I really don't want to be a fashion blogger. I really like and enjoy fashion, but for me personally, spending my days keeping everyone abreast to the latest sales just isn't my idea of making an impact on the world, or what I would like to stand for.
I started this blog, and named it "The Green Robe", because I have a unique story. The story isn't even necessarily about me, but about the women and the village of people out there who came together to help me become a mother, helped me to live my dream of caring for my babies in a stinky green bathrobe.
Cake pops and recipes don't make me special, nor do my outfits, Nordstrom anniversary sale picks, my home decor, or parties I host. I enjoy all of those things and enjoy sharing them to offer others ideas and inspiration. I will absolutely continue to share things that I like, and even a good product or outfit here and there, but those aren't the things that define me.
Motherhood defines me, the symbolism of what the green robe represents is what defines me. My mother in law recently offered to buy me a nice new bathrobe for my birthday but I declined. The green robe has holes in it, a pocket ripped off and it's not even that soft anymore but I'll likely wear it for as long as possible because of the sentiment it holds.
I have a bigger story to tell, that is why I started this blog and I need to continue that story. The private messages I received early from other women struggling with infertility and appreciating my stories brought tears to my eyes and greater meaning to my blogging. That piece of my blogging has gotten lost lately and I regret that. I am going to continue my story as difficult as it can sometimes be, because THAT is the story that can potentially help others and THAT is what makes me so special.